God knows everything! I cannot say that with conviction but I can surely say that he remembers everything. Going into the flasback of my life, it was October 2008 when my Mom was admitted to hospital and was in critical situation. I was so panicky that I just did not know what can I do and when should I fly to India to visit her. I was suggested by one of the elder person to go and sit at the temple and things will be better. I went there and just started to pray with all the heart and tears in my eyes. Humans have a tendency to strike a deal in everything and though I had tried it several times before with the God, this time it was staright from the deepest corner of my heart. The deal was, please save my mom and I promise I would not curse you or ask for reasons if anything bad happens with me in my life.
I did not know if it was approved or not but I felt satisfied and was a bit optimistic on my way back home. Mom was opearted and I was listening to all the spiritual songs and bhajans I could to ease out the pressure. After 3 hours dad called me to say that come back soon, you are needed here. There is no chance. Shocked and sad, I started to pack up for India. Just when the flight was about to take off I received a call from dad saying that there is a bit of improvement in mom's situation. That had a big big effect on my trip. Wehn I reached India, I was informed at the airport that mom is now stable but still has to recover. After 17 days at hospital, mom was told to go home and she had recovered really well. I went to Shirdi to thank almighty and I realized that my deal or my prayer was approved.
I had terrific year after that. Everything falling into place in my life. Things going as i expected. It was almost like a fairy tale and I had long forgotten about the deal. I again started to go through a bad phase in my life. I was shocked, mashed, dusted, and sad. I lost it completely and then I decided to go and ask the almighty "WHY ME?". I had barely closed my eyes and started to pray and in his own way he reminded me of the deal. If I can put it in words " Son, you do not have any right to curse me or ask me any question. Do you remeber what you had told me one year back?" I could not say anything. I was speechless, numb, and surprised. I was surprised to know that he remembered the deal. I had no complaints and no regrets with him. I just offered him my prayers and thanked him for a wonderful year.
He had given me a base and if I cannot capitalize or things did not go as expected, I have no right to ask again. I thank you almighty for giving me what you have and also teaching me that life cannot be a fairy tale always. I respect that and I will try and move ahead towards light. Helpless and no where to go,I just ask you for consideration this time, there is no deal but can you please get me out of this one more time?
6 comments:
nice writing dude..keep it up
and best of luck..i hope HE will listen to you one more time..
Nice post, dude! Writing ur heart out is a great reliever...Always remember...tough times never last, but tough people do!
the words you have put in here will make every reader learn something.
Felt nice to read it :)
Now what's the mess you have got yourself into ?
When you tell me that God reminded you about your promise, I recollect Paul Coelho's "The Alchemist".
Hope you do well and as always, I am sure you will come out of this, a wise man.
Life is a journey taking us on a rocky ride. The destinations are merely new beginnings, a new phase of the journey. There will be highs and lows, happiness and grief. But as long as we live, the journey carries on......Barry Marcus
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